24 May 2020
It has been years since the last time I went here to pour out my heart's content. I choose here simply because no one is going to understand. It is certainly no use talking to people.Recently, I learned that no matter how I am trying to improve myself, to be the best version I could, it is of no use..I will still be not enough, for the wrong person.
If you are with the right person, I am sure that you wont even have the heart to treat her like what you do to me.
Today, on the 1st day of Eid 2020,
all my hopes are destroyed, leaving me clueless, feeling empty. I dont even know what to feel anymore.
Oh how thankful I am if I could be as heartless as you.
kan best kalau aku ni senang tawar hati?
24 September 2018 Today years old
It is today years old that I finally learnt, I never matter to anybody. Nobody wont ever remember the littlest things about me.
It is today years old too that I finally figured out that, I should stop putting so much effort on people because, people wont do the same.
Long story short--I am not important to anybody.
To those who actually remember without any reminder, thank you so much yoda real mvp (my bff)
Nevertheless, happy turning 24 on the 24th of September, dear self. May Allah always showers me with His never ending blessings, May Allah increase my Iman, my Ibadah, and my Rezki. May I become a better person, a better friend, the best daughter to my father and also the best partner to my future love.
and, thank you member,
for the blackmetal / hardcore birthday wish and phone call
for the blackmetal / hardcore birthday wish and phone call
(it made me feel less sad ;D )
17 September 2018 6 mthns in Penang.
It has been such a loooooooooooooooong time i havent blog on anything. Guess adulthood does take the time outta my life. 8-6 or 7 or sometimes 8, 6 days a week really make me want to spend my free time only on sleep and Netflix. Hehe.So,, earlier this year, on March I was assigned to supervise a project in Penang. It feels great somehow to be far away from people, luckily I have the chance to go back to Taiping every weekend <3 p="">
Not gonna talk about my work, bcs work is work n the bullshit in it will never finished.
Long story short, it has been 6 months I'm in Penang. And I have made a new friend. When I mentioned it as a friend, yes he's a friend, ONLY. I can say that this person is a lot weirder and different from most of my friends or the people I ever knew before. You can say that he's not that good kind of guy. Basically, a rebellious type. But, I actually learnt something from being his friend.
ACCEPTANCE.
Yes, I learnt to accept people's imperfections and be patient about it. Surely you can highlight to them about it but you can't expect them to drastically improve it or change themselves. All you can do is talk to them about it then let the time decide.
This got me thinking about the past mistakes I have done to someone I loved so dearly.
And for that, I want to thank Allah for lending me a friend that could make me realised about my mistakes and also giving me the opportunity to improve myself to be the best I could ever be.
Till then.
The next time I'll be writing a recap on my whole 2k18. (sebab malas hihi)